Nobody said it was easy... It's such a shame for us to part, Nobody said it was easy... Noone ever said it would be this hard.Well now, let's look for the truth in this for me. OK... nobody said it was easy. Yet it's proving to be easier than expected. I'm not generally one for much sentimentality. I've been preparing all my life for this journey and I'm finally starting it. As I've mentioned more than once already, I'm feeling rather a lack of emotion at this stage. I did go through a bout of melancholy, and at the beginning of this weeks I was just dying to leave, but now that my farewells have been said, there's just no feeling. I do expect it to be different at the airport, or possibly on the plane, but at the risk of seeming redundant, right now nothing.~Coldplay, The Scientist
It's such a shame for us to part... indeed. I wish my entire life could be in the company of my friends. YET there are good reasons for me to go to the States. Firstly I need to break out of the nest, find my own feet. Secondly it ought to be a damn fine education I'm getting at Williams, so I have no regrets about going. Except maybe that the fees are rather steep. Finally, it's by being cut off (to some extent) from my old networks and groups of friends that I've found many new friends and some of my best. Leaving Brunei, moving to PFS, then to Uplands I've made so many friends I never would have had I stayed on anywhere. What I'm most grateful for is that I've not lost touch with my closest friends from SKBL, who continued on to PFS. To be totally honest it's no shame at all for me to be going. Always good to be booted out of your comfort zone.
No one ever said it would be this hard... and I've already said that it isn't. The leaving part anyway. I can't deny though, that the journey and the destination will be so easy. I have plenty of experience travelling and all but none of us is invulnerable. You can never allow for all the variables... so I hope I scrape through relatively unscathed. That goes for my luggage too. And my violin. There will be exciting times up ahead!
I had meant to post individual goodbyes for a number of people, but I think that may be better off personal. I'll have a think about that, and additionally I think actually having flown off will have some kind of impact on my thoughts of everybody. Lastly the plane trip ought to afford me time to recollect my thoughts about you significant ones in my life. Assuming I don't get too hung up on one person...
I'll look forward to a bunch of last photos with some of you at the airport. Till I'm in the States, I leave you with some music by Lloyd Webber.
Think of me, think of me fondly,
When we've said goodbye,
Think of me once in a while,
Please promise me you'll try...~Andrew Lloyd Webber, The Phantom of the Opera - Think of me
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