LATE!

Whoops! Sorry, I did actually mean to write last night but owing to certain distractions, I failed miserably. Ach weel (Intentional spelling), ye knoe I'm nawt de most reeeliayberl awf fehlowws.

Argh. I want to be saying something that will make you think hard, but I'm not thinking hard myself! WHY??

I thinnk one of the things that's annoying me right now is that I don't have a PURPOSE, as opposed to the normal, lower-case purpose. Nothing driving me besides the mundane desire to keep up my performance in academics, music, fencing, the lot. I don't have a DREAM (I don't dream too often either). I have quasi-idols but it's not the way it used to be. Any suggestions on how to fix that? Just thinking that if I had some powerful motivation like that, the feeling of my current existence, i.e. somewhat detached from everything going on around me, experiences not sinking in beyond a brief memory that says "Oh yes, I did that".

Maybe I need to be shrunk.